Friday, December 16, 2005

It's almost 3am and I'm still working...

I feel like I'm working all the time. Not just the office stuff. Everything feels like work these days.

I am trying to clear my work stuff so I can have more time to spend with Laura these last couple of weeks in her school holidays. In doing so, I seem to be neglecting my family. It is 3am and I am busy preparing cheque payment. Just so the performers and myself get paid before Christmas. I also need to prepare for a corporate show in Johor Bahru this Saturday.

Meanwhile, I need to be mindful of grocery supplies at home. Is there enough vegetable or milk? Do I need to go to the supermarket or the wet market soon? Just when I think I'm ahead of stuff, it's the time of the month for paying bills.

While I am trying to keep abreast of my work work and household stuff, my kids and the biggest baby also need attention. All through the school holidays, I've had very little time for Laura. My children have been spending most days watching "Bug's Life", "Alice in Wonderland", "Monsters Inc" and "Snow White & The Seven Dwarfs".

I am feeling overwhelmed and underpaid. Underpaid in $$ and also in hugs and cuddles. I miss having someone to chat with without the "conversation" turning into ways to help me improve myself or being led on a guilt trip about how I am not spending enough time with the children. We have been like two ship passing in the night. I'm out in the office or out with the kids in the day while he caught up on sleep. Then he was out for performances at night. By the time PT is home, I am using the quiet time at night to catch up with paper work or sorting out stuff that needs to be done the next day. One of us will be in front of the PC and the other staring at the TV. *sigh*

I feel swamped! I've not been able to get any time for myself. I've not had time to go get a haircut in months! My nails look like shit and I'm dying for a tai-tai day out. Where to find the time? Any spare time is allocated for the children. Even my daughter has shown me signs that I'm not managing my time properly. In role play, she picks up her toy handphone and says:

"Hello, I will see you shortly. I am going to drop my kids off at your place ok? Then I will come pick them up later."

Yes, I've been doing that. Drop the children off with our helper at a friend's house so the children can play together.

This Christmas, I'm sure my children and husband are not looking forward to expensive presents from me. They want TIME WITH ME!

Is it that I'm bad at time management or have I bitten off more than I can chew? I feel like I'm in a rut which I do not know how to get out from. HELP!

Thursday, December 15, 2005

A must watch!

This holiday season, go watch this fabulous movie! This is a movie I have waited more than a year to see. I do not know what were the hiccups which hindered the release of "Baik Punya Cilok" earlier but it doesn't matter 'coz the movie will be opening on 22 December.

Afdlin Shauki, Hans Isaac, AC Mizal and Awie play 4 buddies in this buddy movie, each with their little idiosyncrasies. Awie played Bob, my favourite character. He is a beefcake bouncer who likes to read romance novels. Each time he spoke, he is spewing pantun or some peribahasa, most times in the most inappropriate moments. The movie had me howling with laughter! Patrick plays a blind loanshark who cheated Wak (played by AC Mizal) of his grandmother's brooch. His buddies help him get back the brooch but get themselves in more trouble than they anticipated. Harith Iskander plays a supporting role of a police inspector who gets amnesia in mid-sentence. Hilarious!

Now go watch it for yourself! Have a great Christmas laughing your socks off!

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Feeling sleepy and disappointed...

Strange feeling that I'm going through now - sleepy and disappointed. I should be in bed now and I will be shortly. An Afdlin Shauki movie which I've been looking forward to seeing will be opening on 22 December. Tomorrow will be the press preview and the actors have been invited. I was supposed to tag along with Patrick. Both our kids have taken turns being a little under the weather although Adam didn't have a fever when he went to bed tonight. Anyway, being a guilt-ridden mother who feels she should be spending more time with her kids, a suggestion has been made that perhaps I shouldn't go to the press preview of the movie tomorrow. This is a movie I have been looking forward to watching since I saw the 1st cut last year. I had the privilege of watching "Baik Punya Cilok" in the raw, without proper sound and I was howling with laughter. If I do not go see the preview tomorrow, I may not have the time to catch it later as I will not be in town when the movie opens. So strange that I should be feeling so disappointed over a movie.

Thursday, December 08, 2005

We're in a Christmas mood!

The Christmas tree is up! The kids helped me put up the Christmas tree today. Laura was very helpful, handing me the colour-coded branches when we were setting up the tree. Adam helped by staying out of our way. Here are the kids at bedtime, posing next to our Christmas tree.

Now I need to sort out our presents! I've been very good this year, with my Christmas shopping almost complete. Just need to determine who else I need to get presents for.